Robots, I don’t even know. I’ve been all over the place this week, and I’ve been so frustrated and pent-up. I can actually feel myself bristle when things happen around me, I’m avoiding certain sites, I feel anxious and angry when topics come up in conversation around me, I’m twitchy in public spaces. I’m carrying this constant low-level defensiveness that’s manifesting as frustration and aggression and it’s just seeping out of me sometimes. My partner had to ask me this weekend to please be a little less mean to them and I just sort of lost it because I don’t want to be mean it’s just sort of happening to me and i hate it.
I wish I was made of spikes and quills.